I grew up attending church. In fact, as a child and young teenager, I loved church and youth group and felt a strong connection to God. I prayed regularly.
High School, college and my twenties I thought differently. I guess science made more logical sense to me. I tried to analyze how a God, a man could have created the world, the solar system and every living creature in it. That is just not reasonable, right? I was not so closed minded to think that there was a possibility of a higher power out there, just didn’t see the realism in that belief. Hubby and I, with our friends used to hike a lot. 6 to 8 mile hikes were not unusual for us. I would stand on top of a mountain and take in the view and feel such reward that I climbed that far to see such beauty. I did find myself wondering how all this beauty and majesty got here.
Everything changed when I was in my mid to late 30s. After many years of marriage and thinking we did not want children, we decided to start a family.
Pregnancy is an amazing experience. So many “miracles” are involved. Being older and getting pregnant right away (twice) was a miracle all on its own. Then there is childbirth. There are some many things that can go wrong for 9 months (and when you are over 35, boy do the doctors make you feel like you have one foot in the grave on your own) and then holding a healthy baby for this first time is both amazing and spiritual. Reminds me of that George Strait song “I Saw God Today”. If you haven’t heard it, listen/watch here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q06AvQF5NOw.
Sometimes we have to throw our hearts and minds to the wind. I now think, how could science be solely responsible for all the beauty and life in this world?
So, we started going to church. For hubby and I, this is the first time we have gone regularly (at all really) in almost 20 years of marriage. Initially for me, it was for the kids. I wanted Elizabeth and John to have a church home and to learn about Christ and then one day they can make the decision for themselves. Not giving them this opportunity seemed unfair. I realized I enjoy church. I always did when I went as a kid. I enjoy the bible verses and I enjoy the messages of Dr Savage and Dr Phares. I enjoy the sense of community it provides and opportunities to help others. I enjoy that sense of belonging.
I have a long way to go in figuring this all out. I have only just begun this journey.
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